night thoughts: And what I showed and when will we enjoy how you were and how you became my money you died and left nothing and what you built and came and why did you go and why did you melt? Why did you go and when you went and came back to me and you are sad? What brought you back sad after all the warnings I gave you and here you are and you have returned and you are sad and spoiled you do not know the words with which you will start your conversation with me as long as I warned you and told you not to go and not to do this and that and not to be a friend of that and not to do everything I forbade you from but you always do what you
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want and do not listen to my advice and conversations and warnings I am only afraid for you so I advise you but if I am not afraid for you I will not advise you and I will not talk to you and I will not give you any instructions or directions or advice because every person who loves you and respects you and appreciates you and reciprocates with you high feelings and you are accurate and deep will always give you sincere advice in your life that you may not care about now but in the future you will remember and say I was right and all his words were on True, but it will be too late,
and the choices you made will have given results that may be positive or negative, so a person will live one life, so there must be risks, but these dryers must be positive risks, not negative risks. Some say, “I will try drinking alcohol once,” but the question is, is alcohol worth trying? We all know that alcohol is harmful, so we should not try it and waste time on this experience. People have tried it before, and it has harmed them, as well as smoking. So why do we try it and insist on it and say that it is one of life’s experiences? Why do we say that it is
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one of life’s experiences, knowing that life’s experiences have proven that it is harmful to health? Why do we insist on living alone, and studies have proven that man is a social creature? Why do we insist on trying things that people have tried before, and they gave the same result, and we still insist that we are different and the result will be different with us?
Why do we insist on doing all of that? Why don’t I know? All I know is what I said now, and they are all ideas that came to mind? My mind and I said it, so I recorded it, so I wrote it, so I published it, and that’s it, and that’s it now, and perhaps I will share mixed, confused night thoughts that sway between my brain, and my brain says a thousand words and my tongue says half of them, because the speed of the thoughts in my mind is faster than what my tongue can say, so whenever I say a word with my tongue, my mind says 100 of them, and that’s it.
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